Lapher’s Blog

Life is just pretty much interesting. The world only see what are the bad things that you do in life then slowly count the many good deeds that you made. So is kindness a norm that everyone just do, or do we need to put extra effort i to it, sheading blood in gaining the trust of a person, being a kind and caring person ad try to live in a good name. Does all these ever matter when all you need is a bloody mistake in your life and all these things that you have earned so hard just vanished in to thin air. Why will you be grades a bad person when you did one single mistake and in all your life you try to be someone kind and nice. I am not talking about killers, rapist and robbers, those can rot in hell, but i am talking about us, people who just live our lives hanging around with our friends working our arse out for coloured notes.

Why can’t we just talk about it and not show face and think i am a bad person? We where given a voice for a reason, is to talk about it, given a mind to think and not assume, and a heat to feel and not to hurt. Why cant that simple mistake be a lesson to me and solve it by talking rather then to stick a knife in my heart and leave it there for the rest of my life.

Well i feel that life is a never ending series. Just like the bold and the beautiful (No i dont watch it) the story never ends and its so repetetive. Well guess life is just like that. I feel that in my life no matter how i change myself, i make alot of mistakes and when i analyse the mistakes that i have made, its the same old one but with different environment with different people. If i said i learned from my past, then you might ask why i make them again? Well puzzling isnt it? I do ask the same questions to myself everytime. Sometimes you know whats going to happen and you know well enough that its going to be a bad outcome, i still tend to stick my head right at the shithole again. i remember there is one episode of the Simpsons that homer was asked to grab a very hot object and he kept on trying to get it but it burns is hands, kept on doing. on the otherside however was a monkey who refuses to grab it coz its hot. In my case i feel like i am homer, making the same mistakes again and again, blindly following my so called gut instints.